CCCXCIII – The Spiritual War Is Real

I am married now. Huzzah, Huzzah! Mrs. Scoot and I have enjoyed our time with friends and family.

The posts that have been coming so far this month have been things stored up before and after the sacrament, but I thought it fitting to share a brief reflection having passed through the sacrament.

The spiritual war is real. As Mrs. Scoot and I approached the sacrament it intensified. Satan hates positive acts of love. Satan hates commitments based in love. Satan hates covenants centered on God. The spiritual war is very real. One way I know this is because immediately after being married I felt a spiritual release. The consolation of Christ is more real than the hatred of satan. You can feel the difference.

If you are going through a challenging period, it is either because God is challenging you to grow, or because satan wants to stop you from growing—or, like Job, a combination of both. It is not every time that God gives us the blessing of perceptible consolation, but when He does, you know. When He doesn’t, it might just mean the test isn’t over yet.

I have never been more aware of the spiritual war than in preparation for marriage. I have never been more aware of God’s mercy than after.

Know that I have been praying for all of you!

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit. As it was in the beginning, is now and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.

CCCLXXXII – Satire

Long time readers will know how much I advocate for individualism. No one is a better arbiter of our needs than, well, us. This goes for everything, including our spiritual needs. I have a relationship with God that is unique and special and so I have a duty to follow the promptings of the Holy Spirit as mediated through my wise discernment.

This, at least, was my point of view until I noticed some troubling things.

It is slowly dawning on me that I am capable of sin. I know! It has been a shock to me too. But I noticed how I was speaking–profanity!–and total irreverence for God! I even confided in some friends that I really don’t see the problem with female ordination, since I don’t really understand the necessity of ordination in the first place.

These may sound trivial, but they are dramatic failures since I am supposed to be infallible. Why would the Holy Spirit allow such awful things unless I wasn’t protected by the Holy Spirit? I am starting to think that my conscience is not qualified in any way to lead my church.

Because of these blatant and obvious failures, I have decided that I am going to bend the knee to Pope Francis, and return to communion with Rome. After my many sins and failures and public scandals, if nothing else it would be helpful to be able to blame someone else.

(AMDG)

CCCLXXVII – Metaphysical Plot Armor

Here is a thought that has helped me radically trust in God. At first glance it is going to sound either offensive, or stupid, or naïve, or all three–but it is an important point and it has helped me tremendously, so I hope it helps you too.

Here are some predicates–let’s call them Bus Stops to hearken back to Zippy’s bus stops model. Ride the bus to the stop you disagree with. When you disagree, it is time to get off the bus.

First Stop: The Catholic Church is God’s Church. The Catholic Church is the Church instituted by Christ. There are many other Churches who compete for attention, and many of them have aspects which are good or interesting or helpful, but they are not God’s Church and so when followed through will not lead people to a proper understanding of God. The status as God’s Church is a mutually exclusive claim–there can only be one answer, and all other answers are error. If you agree with this, stay on the bus. Otherwise, it’s time to get off. You may as well navigate away from this article, because the rest of this will be incomprehensible if you disagree with this first and fundamental step.

Second Stop: The Pope–Pope Francis– is God’s Representative on Earth. The Catholic Church is God’s Church, and the head of God’s Church is the Pope, who has authority from God, handed down from Peter, and which rests today with Pope Francis. If you do not acknowledge the authority of the papacy, or if you do not acknowledge the authority of Pope Francis specifically, get off the bus. The second stop follows logically from the first stop. If you acknowledge the that the Catholic Church is God’s Church then you must logically accept that the leader of the Catholic Church is the leader of God’s Church.

Third Stop: On Specific Matters, under a specific invocation, the Pope can speak infallibly. As the leader of God’s Church, The Pope is the highest possible authority, whose authority is granted by God, and whose charge was instituted by God. So the Pope must be able to have the last word and final say on matters of confusion. This idea is Papal Infallibility. Papal Infallibility has been invoked seven times since the dawn of the Church (to my recollection). A frequent misunderstanding is that everything the Pope says is infallible, which is not true. When conditions are just so, and the Pope specifies that what he is doing is speaking ex cathedra, from the chair of Peter, so infallibly, he may do so. If you disagree that the Pope may speak infallibly, if you disagree that infallibility is very limited, and if you disagree that Papal Infallibility is the last word and final say, get off the bus. These again follow logically from the previous stops, so if this is the issue everything that follows will be incomprehensible.

Fourth Stop: Infallible Pronouncements are protected by God because they must be true. If the Pope is going to speak infallibly, and give the last word and final say, what he says must be in conformity with God, which means what he says must be true. The Pope cannot speak infallibly on every subject, the Pope cannot speak untruths infallibly, the Pope cannot create anything new infallibly. The Pope can only say that which is in conformity with truth and so with God. This means that infallible pronouncements are protected by the Holy Spirit, and do not and cannot err. If they did err, they would not be the last word and final say. Remember: Not everything the Pope says is an infallible pronouncements, so not everything the Pope says is protected by God. Only the infallible pronouncements are protected by God. If you disagree that Infallible pronouncements are protected by God, get off the bus.

Fifth Stop: The truth is protected by God, so the Church is protected by God. If the Pope’s infallible pronouncements are protected by God, that means God both preserves truth and prevents error in terms of doctrine and dogma. God is actively shepherding the Church, and the Church cannot formally proclaim error and cannot formally assert untruth. The doctrines of the Church are protected by God and are indefectible. They are indefectible because the doctrines are true and truth does not change. If you do not believe the doctrines of the Church are true, or do not believe the doctrines of the Church are protected by God, then get off the bus.

Sixth and Final Stop: The Church is metaphysically incapable of teaching and compelling error. Look at usury: The Church hasn’t changed it’s teaching, but has stopped enforcing usury rules. The Church is not teaching error, but it has let down it’s guard on this teaching. The Church is protected from ever allowing female ordinations, homosexual marriages, or any other grievous error under debate today. The powers that be can make a lot of disheartening noise, but if we have gotten this far we believe that God will not allow any of that disheartening noise to become a disheartening teaching of the Church.


The protection of the Holy Spirit is the closest thing we will ever get to having plot armor in real life. It is metaphysically incapable of teaching error. If that doesn’t give you profound trust in God and in His Church, then I don’t know what will. The world must be a scary place.

AMDG

CCCLXXIII – Two Thoughts: Birds and Angels

Why did the Holy Spirit descend as a dove? There are a lot of good reasons for this–doves are evocative of the covenant with Noah after the flood; doves are light and gentle creatures and the Holy Spirit alights upon Christ gently.

But I think there’s something about birds that is kind of like how there is something about gold. Birds are evocative of spirits, and have been even before Christ. Rome was founded because of a wager about vultures–symbols of the God of War, Mars. After Christ, we have seen the Byzantine and Holy Roman Empires use the two-headed Eagle, almost every country has a national bird, and this practice seems to be ubiquitous. It’s not that every country decided–“Hey, we should pick a national bird”–it’s that every country had one already, colloquially if not officially.

National birds tell us about the spirit of the country, or the spirit of the organization. America has the Eagle, Canada has the Goose, France has the Gallic Rooster, the Philippines have the Philippine Eagle. You an obviously learning something about a people by the symbols they choose for themselves, but you can especially learn something about a people by the birds they choose to represent them. The birds embody their national spirit.


My mind naturally transitioned from Birds to Angels, not only because of the winged imagery but also because I have thought about the spirits of places before.

This thought took a different approach though. When did God create angels? When I googled, the top result was that it was on the first day when God separated the light and the dark. I remember also Hambone telling me about some Tolkeinology that prior to creation the angels sang in a harmonious chorus. There’s something convincing about both ideas.

The idea that Angels were created on the first day is convincing because it establishes quite neatly that nothing existed prior to creation–that everything is accounted for in Genesis. While the creation of Angels are not explicit, I think it could easily be implicit. Aquinas notes–as a helpful commenter here once told me–that the Angels are so numerous as to be beyond human comprehension. Angels could have jobs and those jobs could be things like “Carry the sun” or “Carry the moon” or “enforce the division between light and dark”. The separation of the light and dark could also be evocative of the fall of angels–fallen angels were separated from the light and were cast into the outer darkness. Both ideas could be correct as far as I can tell.

I like the second idea–that Angels pre-existed Genesis–because it implies that God created Angels and while I am sure He found them very good, they were not His finished work. The Angels could adore and glorify God alone, but in the plan of creation is something more mystical and beautiful than just the formless void and the angels alone. There’s something beautiful about that thought–that God could have contented himself with angels but didn’t, because he intended creation from the very beginning.

Also, the idea of an Angelic genesis is kind of cool. Although–God is creating Angels all the time, I think, so it is never a complete genesis, the way Biblical Genesis is complete. Maybe that’s why Angels are not mentioned, and yet are presumed to already exist (as Satan is a fallen angel and already in the garden.)

I don’t know what the Church teaches on Angels, having–as always–done no research for this. I also don’t know how detailed knowledge of the Angelic genesis would help with our faith journey, but I did find the thought interesting and I hope you do too.

AMDG

CCCXXIV – Overheard in the Officer’s Tent

Editors Note: I have just returned from a bout of non-recreational travel over the past two weeks. I apologize for my tardiness in replying to some comments left on this site and I am eager to catch up on a few places where I have not had the pleasure to read since I have been away. I always considered this blog something of a half-minded lark that I write in when my brain gets full, but I was surprised by how much I missed writing here. So, I am back, dear readers! It might not feel like I was gone since I was able to squeeze out a post or two, but sincerely, I missed this. Back to it!


I have previously characterized this blog–the Times-Dispatch–as an “officers tent of a volunteer militia”. I spend a lot of this time conditioning my readers on how to feel good about losing, because our Earthly battles are just that, while the spiritual war was won at Calvary. There will be no heaven on earth. There will be no political victory for Catholics. There will only be a lifetime of suffering in service of Christ, and then we will shed our mortal coil and, God willing, return to him.

It is important to understand this because we have to manage our expectations, and our efforts. If our expectation is to win political victories, then we need to put a significant amount of effort into our political operations. If our expectation is to win military victories, then we need to put a significant amount of effort into our military operations, which we are not.

Yet, from time to time, we are permitted by the grace of God to taste something that resembles victory. Everyone in the world probably knows this by the time I hit publish on this article–that the Supreme court “overturned Roe v. Wade”. I have not read the opinion–and I decided, in keeping with my Peasant ideology, I ought not read it. It is enough to know the effects without knowing the arguments. I will act as if a learned man passed through my village and told me the news. I ought to throw up a prayer of thanksgiving, pray that this beginning is brought to a Holy conclusion, and resume my work, whatever it is.

There are four elements to success in a military campaign, according to my study of the American Civil War. The first two are basic: You need supplies, and you need people to wield them. An army cannot fight if the army is composed of only one soldier; an army cannot fight if ten-thousand soldiers are armed with sticks. You need willing men and you need them to be well supplied. The second two elements are not basic: You need strong and sensible commanders, you need a good fighting spirit. Commanders are hard to come by, and oftentimes the first phase of a war is spent eliminating all the incompetent peacetime commanders and promoting all the competent wartime commanders who were hidden beneath them. Fighting spirit refers to two things: The public taste for war–a just war will always have the support of the public, and as long as the public has an appetite for war, it will continue; and the soldiers morale for fighting–a despondent soldiery will refuse to fight, or fight poorly, while an energetic and zealous soldiery will fight hard and fight well. The public taste for war can be won or lost by a commander, the soldiers morale for fighting can be gained or lost by how a commander chooses battles.

Here is a case study. The Confederate States of America had an advantage in fighting spirit and commanders; the Union had an advantage in numbers and supplies. The Civil War could have been concluded with great haste if the Union commanders had executed a violent campaign with speed and enthusiasm; but instead the Union commanders, particularly McClellan, hesitated and feared. A common refrain on both sides of the war was an unwillingness to fight without more troops. The delay caused by McClellan’s incompetence allowed the Confederates to reorganize their army around their most competent commanders, to bring up more recruits and more supplies, and reduce the disparity in the two areas the Confederates were deficient. Jackson’s Valley Campaign is a beautiful example of how the Confederates were able to leverage their strengths–Excellent commanders, a strong fighting spirit–and confuse, confound, and delay the Union from persecuting their campaign. Jackson’s army which began at 5,000 men and was maybe 17,000 at it’s highest point, was able to keep a Union army of some 50,000 busy in the Shenandoah Valley and delay an all-out assault on Richmond, Virginia.

As Catholics who love God and promote the God-given dignity of every human life, how do we measure on the four attributes of a successful military campaign?

We have people–if you were to take self identified Catholics you might think we had an overwhelming number of people, but the reality is that many self identified Catholics do not acknowledge or follow the doctrines of the Church. How many that is, it is hard to say. Even with an optimistic estimate, the opponents of God and the opponents of Life are more popular and more numerous, and it is likely to always be that way. Evangelists, Apologists, Catechists, Parents, Priests, Good Catholics everywhere: This is work you can do. Tell people about the faith, practice it with earnest fervor, demonstrate to the world what the love of God is capable of. Teach people what Catholics actually believe, what the Church actually teaches, and why God actually calls them to His Church.

We have supplies–but can always have more. Pray the rosary daily. Go to confession, celebrate Mass. Put on the Armor of God. Pray for your enemies, pray for your friends. Pray for your priests, because the pulpit is the breakwater against the world. Pray for the Church. As Wood so eloquently put it: if you _____ more than you pray, you might be more part of the problem than you realize it. I have heard several instances where people hold up a rosary and say “This is my weapon”. They are not joking–it is the most powerful weapon in the world–against Sin, Satan, and Sadness. If you are wondering what you can do to help the cause, you can be a prayerful Rosier the Riveter and pray like your life depends on it because it does.

We have many commanders of varying qualities. We have the abundance of peacetime commanders that happens when our commanders don’t have to fight for their lives and the lives of their men. Some of our commanders do, and do so valiantly–pray for them. Some of our commanders disappoint us in varying and unique ways–pray for them too. Here’s the unusual thing: We can’t spare a single man to the enemy, much less our commanders. Pray that our commanders find their fighting spirit. Pray that new commanders find their way to positions of authority to lead the Church in the fight. Pray that our enemies are converted and put to use against the enemy, like that great evangelist St. Paul.

And one thing we have in abundance, an advantage over any enemy that the evil one might throw at us, is fighting spirit. Because our fighting spirit is the Holy spirit. The Holy Spirit fills the hearts of those who can fight so that they fight well. It fills the hearts of those who cannot fight so that they can supply our fighting men with prayer. The Church, and the Church Militant, joined by the Church Triumphant, has the most unquenchable fighting spirit ever known and it only ever gets stronger. Call upon the Holy Spirit to enflame your heart for battle.

But, what do we do, once we have taken stock of the things we have? We must find the enemy and press hard. Concentrate your forces, divide the forces of the enemy. That’s how Jackson was able to fight with so much success in the mountains of Virginia.

What the Supreme Court has handed us, in this ruling, is not a final victory. The Supreme court has divided our enemy fifty times. Catholics are used to fighting under the principles of subsidiarity–any abortion clinic in the country, at some point you will find a Catholic praying a rosary outside of it–I guarantee it. Catholics are fighting a guerilla war against the world, and are very seasoned at it. So now we take the fight to the state-houses across America. Only those members of state-houses can affect this, the rest of us must supply our soldiers with prayers. We will face the unashamed cult of satan, who want to sacrifice babies to the gaping maw of evil. We will face the pearl clutching, hand wringing, “haven’t we gone far enough”, “let’s strike a compromise” crowd of right-liberals who support “the choice” for life, who don’t have the spine to draw a line in the sand and say they will not cross. The folks who need our support the most are those politicians capable of effectuating zero-tolerance legislation prohibiting abortion of any kind. This is the only thing that will be a true victory–and when it is achieved (not if, but when) it will need to be defended legislatively because no legislative progress is permanent, there will always be votes to change the rules and turn over past legislation.

So these are the stakes. Literally: Life or death. Do not suffice to merely choose life. Love life. Love the author of life Himself. Love all that is beautiful, good, and true–and love your enemies, by praying that they come to love it too.

You will never get anything you don’t ask for. Ask God for a miracle. Trust that he will hear you.

Ad Maiorem Dei Gloriam


Come, Holy Spirit, fill the hearts of your faithful.
And kindle in them the fire of your love.
Send forth your Spirit and they shall be created.
And you will renew the face of the earth.

Lord,
by the light of the Holy Spirit
you have taught the hearts of your faithful.
In the same Spirit
help us to relish what is right
and always rejoice in your consolation.
We ask this through Christ our Lord.
Amen.

CCI – On Silent Prayer

I’ve been thinking about Silent Prayer ever since I came upon that Mother Theresa quote about it. I’ve attempted to integrate the idea into my prayer life–NB: Different things work for different people, prayer advice is kind of like stock advice, just because something works for me doesn’t make me an expert, and doesn’t mean it will always work for me, nor does it mean it will work for you.

My brain is a loud and conflicted one–every time I try to pray silently a million thoughts rush into my mind. It takes effort to restrain them, like holding back a big dog on a leash. When I was a kid, I developed an exercise I could practice against this crowded and noisy mind in order to help me stop thinking and get to sleep. It’s a visualization exercise: I would place myself in the center of a dome whose walls had fallen down and all my thoughts were flying through and knocking down more walls and creating chaos and revealing a starry night sky in the background. So I would lift up these giant panels of the dome and fix them into place, and that part of the dome would be black, even if just a square. Sometimes I would fix the bottom ring into place and build up, sometimes I would fix a hemisphere into place before building out the rest. But as I completed the dome, I would obstruct the flow of thoughts, and I would be left with a peaceful mind. Occasionally a chaotic thought would break through and I would visualize a panel falling out of place in the section I already completed, but I would just put it back. In the end, my visualization would align with what I could see through closed eyes–perfect, uniform darkness, and so peace.

This always helped me sleep, sometimes I would fall asleep naturally in the process of building my dome, kind of like counting sheep. But once I realized this was effective I began to explore my mind because I had the room to do so. I did not really have religious predilections when I was a child so conceiving of this time as prayer did not cross my mind, even though that’s exactly what it was. God used this time, even if I didn’t. One of my explorations was that, once I completed the dome, there was still one thought that remained, and that was my internal monologue. But even when I would hold my internal tongue, I still had an awareness of myself, which I would seek to suppress. In moments of unusual clarity, I could succeed in a mere moment of thoughtlessness, of pure black void, and instead of peaceful sleep I would have tasted the experience of death.

As a child–even well into college–this exercise would send a chill down my spine that lasted for days. Nothingness. I feared death more than anything else. This gave me over to imagining the process of death. A question I would return to: Where does my brain go? My consciousness would evaporate into nothing and be lost for eternity.

It never occurred to me after I became Catholic that I stopped having these fearful visions as I fell asleep.

A loving God replaced the empty void. After reading the quote by Mother Theresa, I started turning my dome-construction exercise to the purposes of my prayer life. I’ve used this to positive effect–when I try to talk to God it is chaotic and rambling and I don’t know what I am saying but hoping that somewhere in my prayerful “word-salad” God will have mercy and hear my supplications. Silence has helped me embrace the fact that God knows what I need before I ask–so it is better for me to listen to Him, at least at this point in my life. I’ll construct the dome and sometimes I can visualize an altar in the middle, illuminated by a faint and distant light. And I will tame my wayward thoughts and occasionally let them wander, and occasionally they will wander in productive ways, ways I presume are aided by the Holy Spirit. But I must hold the leash tightly, because if I let go then my thoughts will run wild and knock down panels of the dome. I don’t know how it works, but I feel spiritually fortified after attempting this manner of prayer for a few weeks. I understand now what Mother Theresa meant when she said it takes practice. I feel as if I am exercising a muscle I have let atrophy.

All this to say, Silent prayer is working for me, right now. May it work for you; and if not, may your prayer life be fruitful in the way best suited to you.

AMDG

CXXVI – More on Spiritual Joy

I have written about Spiritual Joy previously, and hinted there would be more to come. I haven’t touched it since, in this space; but I haven’t stopped thinking about it. At the time of this writing, I’ve had a fruitful morning of contemplation about my own life and the fruits of that I think are worth sharing.

Previously I spoke about Joy as removing inordinate attachments. This is a key part of it, to be sure, but I realized a bigger part is surrendering control. A passenger on a boat-tour can enjoy the scenery more than the pilot, who must navigate the waters and on some occasions actually give the tour.

Don’t misunderstand me: The pilot can find joy in doing his job well, but that is a different kind of joy that comes from fruitful labor. The kind of joy I am focusing on is the joy that comes from recognizing that God has control of our lives.

Let me put this in a little bit of context. In my own life, I realized I have a problem with control. I give myself a lot of stress and anxiety in my efforts to control some aspect of other people’s lives. In my work, I had a lot of liberty to innovate and tackle issues, until I had a new boss, who wished to do those things herself and reduced my ability to do those things. I lost control, and I suffered tremendously in vain pursuit of getting it back. This was suffering I could have avoided if I better practiced Obedience, first to God and second to my employer. I have a strong aversion to flying, and I think it’s because I’m fundamentally not in control of my fate–I could avoid that self imposed torment if I better practiced Trust in God. In the words of Stonewall Jackson: “My religious beliefs teach me to feel as safe in battle as in bed. God has fixed the time of my death. I do not concern myself with that, but to be always ready whenever it may overtake me. That is the way all men should live, and all men would be equally brave.”

A character trait I share with my family is the feeling that it is better to be right, even if it burns every bridge, than to be compliant and well liked. This is a desire for control, and this gets me into endless (and needless) trouble.

So how does all this relate to Joy? Surrendering control of externalities and people requires cultivating Trust and Obedience. Cultivating those things leads to serenity: Peace with the world. The fights that are worth fighting will be apparent, and you can save your energy for them. Fights that aren’t worth fighting, you can let go.

Consider what things cause you stress or anxiety. Is it because you are trying to control them? Is it something you can let go? Will stepping out of it bring you peace?

AMDG

CVIII – Spiritual Joy

I’ve been thinking a lot about Joy–spiritual Joy. The kind of Joy where you look at a person and can tell they are filled with the Holy Spirit. I’ve resolved to make this my 2020 Project, to cultivate a spiritual joy. So where to begin?

Joy and Attachment

Spiritual joy is inversely proportional to worldly attachments. Remember: Joy is not an emotion, but it has emotions associated with it. So Joy isn’t just an attitude adjustment. I’m a bit of an inconsolable optimist, but that doesn’t necessarily mean that I’m joyful. So why do I say attachment is the inverse of Joy?

Joy is one of the gifts of the Holy Spirit. So the more you fill yourself with the Holy Spirit, the more your cup floweth over with Joy. You can only make room for the Holy Spirit by removing inordinate attachments from your life. You recognize inordinate attachments by recognizing temptation.

Temptation tells you two things: what are you attached to, and what does the evil one want you to be attached to. Many times they are the same thing, but the times they are different it is worth paying attention and being extra careful.

It is possible to have an inordinate attachment to intangible things: Time, Rest, Leisure. Things you wouldn’t normally consider temptations. Your reputation can be an inordinate attachment.

What Am I Supposed To Do?

Identify areas where you feel you may have an inordinate attachment. And start chipping away at it. And as you chip away at these things, pray about them with God. Ask for guidance on what a well balanced life looks like. Ask for strength to persevere in the face of discomfort. But also ask the Holy Spirit to fill the gap. Do not look at it as sacrifice, look at it as getting closer to God. Therein lies the Joy. The Joy in giving up the world, and resting entirely in the love of God.

More on this to come. I’m only just beginning to scratch the surface, I feel.

AMDG